I went to a job interview last Monday. I know a handful of people at the company I interviewed with, including the one of the main guys, who I’ve worked with at three previous jobs. I tried not to play this up, I’d like to think that I can get a job based on my qualifications and nothing else. So I answered honestly, too honestly, about why I quit the last several jobs I’ve had, and what my interests are, even though I knew that information would only work against me. I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m still operating under the naive assumption that being honest with a potential (or even current) employer is in everybody’s best interest. After dealing with clients for the last three years who pretty much asked me to lie to them, I approached this job interview as if it were a refreshing change of pace. I should have known better.
Notes to self: Don’t admit that if you were offered a better job with better pay somewhere else, you’d probably take it. Don’t admit that at any point in your career you’ve disagreed with the policies set forth by an executive staff. Don’t admit that you’ve ever quit a job because you thought it was un-fulfilling. Don’t admit that you’ve put your own happiness in front of the well being of a company you worked for. It doesn’t matter if things like this are true, justified, and obvious to anyone who looks hard enough, it’s not what any potential employer wants to hear.
Something else I think I might have underestimated; the fact that it’s a buyers market. Employers have the upper hand. The word “commitment” was thrown around in this interview more times that I could count. Even during the boom, when jobs were aplenty, I worked seventy to eighty hour weeks fairly regularly. I’ve had a commitment to the companies I worked for that I felt, and still do feel, was unquestionable. And I left more than a couple companies when it became apparent that my commitment to the company was not matched, not even in part, by the company’s commitment to me, or any other of its employees who worked equally hard. This is the one thing I didn’t mention that I probably should have, though it too would most likely have worked against me. That jobs are no longer aplenty doesn’t change anything for me, but it does for employers. Along with figuring out better answers for why I left previous jobs, I need to figure out a way to demonstrate commitment beyond saying, “yes, I’ve worked under a lot pressure with tight deadlines, and have no problem doing so again.”
Here’s a first shot at my new song and dance: I left my last job, not because I didn’t agree with many decisions made by my boss, but because I did not feel I was a good fit for the position I held and made a decision to pursue a career as a freelance web designer. My interests from any future job are not those that match my skills or things that I have a genuine interest in, but the duties listed in the job description. Commitment? Yeah, I’ll work sixty, seventy, even eighty hours a week for as long as you want, at a wage that is at least 25% less than my market value, and of course I’ll pass up any better job offers.
For the record, I don’t know whether or not I got the job. Over the past few years I’ve come to the conclusion that first, my job will never be a significant source for creative fulfillment, and second my job should not be at the center of my life. Any job I take will be something I do to pay the bills (and maybe afford a few luxuries) and something that I may not necessarily like, but it will not cause me to be unhappy in my life as a whole. Also, any job I take should leave me free to pursue creative endeavors outside of work. I think these conclusions I’ve come to have made me largely unemployable in this market, at least not if I’m honest about them.